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Name: Jenny
Country: United States
State: Texas
Birthday: 9/22/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: so many many...
Occupation: Other
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
8/15/2003
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| Well...
it looks like I'm bent on self-destruction. hm.
...頑張ります。
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| ..it took me forever to figure out how to tell xanga that I wanted to post a new blog. This new system......meh.
I'm not so sad anymore. =) And the event that perked me up today?? ....really, it was the promise of someone spending time with me tomorrow. I can't quite figure out of that's kind of sad or if it simply means I'm really easy to please.
I'm not sure why I'm blogging over here instead of my normal place on lj. I'm being all...spontaneous, I suppose. =3 yay me!
I'm already thinking about moving back to Austin. I'm deciding where I want to live and with who and thinking about classes, and I'm even starting to think beyond that...which is odd, simply because this is a recent thing and I wasn't able to do it before. I mean, I was able to fantacize, but I feel like maybe reality is smacking me in the face and I'm waking up and realizing fantasy isn't reality..unless I make it that way. So maybe I'm on my way. Maybe.
Anyways, I decided that I should get myself a puppy when I move back. A lot of the reason behind that is a secret XD. I can't tell...but if you ask me, I'll tell you. I just feel funny typing it out here. But the other reason is because I want some stability, and I can have some if I have a puppy to take care of, I think. It's like I'm starting to build my own family. And I also know that since that puppy depends on me, I'll want to take care of myself better. So when I'm an old spinster, I won't be a cat lady, I'll be a puppy and giraffe lady (I AM getting that giraffe, after all). But anyways, I already found the one I want on petfinder.com. Nina suggested I email them and ask them to hold her for me since I won't get back to Austin until sometime in August. She seems so perfect for me, and she's heinously cute, too. Look look look! (don't steal her, please.) Hopefully that's my new baby. I hope they'll be able to work a deal with me...I'll be so excited to adopt a puppy and give her a new home.
Another thing I've been thinking about is what to do after graduation. It might be crazy, but I'm almost completely bent on the idea of moving to California for grad school, and trying to get an internship there where I can use my Japanese skills (that I hopefully develop soon >.< ). I was thinking of attending the Monterey Institute and getting a master's in Translating and Interpreting. But while doing that, I'd also like to pick up French. And to do that, I'd actually really like to do it in France. ...hm. I don't know. I'm trying to work it out in my head..and first I think I should decide if I can put aside my crazy loans and borrow even MORE money to make this work. I have to figure out how determined I am, and if this is really what I want to do. I'm almost positive it is... AH. I should. I need to just do like Miyavi's tummy tattoo says and "Don't hesitate and go." Because if you work hard enough, everything will come together in the end *semi-scoff*. But there may be another problem. If I get my puppy, it might be selfish of me to just up and move her like that after a year instead of trying to give her a stable home. But it might be okay...she might be okay as long as I'm there with her. =) It's scary to move far away from everyone and everywhere you know, but if you have a little companion, it's not so bad. Maybe that's what she'll be for me too.
It's kind of odd. All of this came about after I told my brother how tired of school I was, and him telling me I should take a break after graduating and just go where I want. Why does him telling me that make me more determined to do more schooling??? oy vey. go fig.
The later future is looking pretty okay right now, but the now future....that could still use a little work. I'm working on it.
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| I'm not sure whether I should keep this place updated or not. I usually only use my lj account...bah. I'll keep this place. There are a lot of people that read my lj, and not so much that read my xanga, so if I want to say something that I dont' want the WORLD to know, I can do it here. I don't think most people there care enough to stalk and try to find my xanga account. =)
Oh, I just had an idea. I can use this place to practice my crappy writing I don't want everyone to see! YAY!
..I don't feel like copy/pasting..so I'll just say: I'm in Japan now, enjoying myself mostly. I've met a few people, and I'm very glad I'm here. This is going to be BIG. I want school to start though, I'm ready to LEARN...haha. And I need to get out more and maybe talk to people, but FIRST I need confidence in my abilities! OOORRR I need MORE abilities! Everything here is so pretty, even in places where it's CROWDED like crazy with lots of cars and people going everywhere (Shibuya), it's STILL pretty.
Okay, I want some 朝ごはん.
xoxoxoxox
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| there are too many rotten people in this world.
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